Crossed Fingers

Okay. So.

I got the results, and my diagnosis...



It was revised to depression, moderate anxiety, and aspergers..

So.. yeah. It's a problem that is keeping me from working, and technically a disability, but I'm so high functioning that nobody will ever help me, and focus is so much on catching it early that it's hard to find any helpful information.

So.. back to square one.. I want to earn a living off of indie game development.. not the best career, has a lot of hard work and luck involve, but.. it's what I want to do.

So, hopefully, this blog will document my mediocre rise to making games and seeing if I can get spare cash somehow from it.

I have many of the skills necessary, but they aren't honed, which I'm having a bit of trouble getting on.. though now that I know my problems a bit better, maybe things will improve a bit from here.

.. I also let the domain lapse, and it was bought up by a 3rd party trying to resell the stupid thing I made up as a premium business domain: I'm NOT re-obtaining Purpletrauma.. but I did make up something suitably catchy, easy to remember, sounds like those dumb little names small game development groups use, and is not taken.. big reveal later, maybe I'll work on a logo for it..

Anyway, I'm still trying to get things done.. just.. I have trouble figuring out how to get things done, and with that diagnosis I'm learning why..

I don't mean to just rant here, but point is.. I refuse to just let this thing die completely, so I'm still working on getting things started, now that after a couple months I got a rejection from the organization that said they could help me leaving me back to square one after pandering all that time...

I plan on starting again this weekend, and we'll see how far I get on the dumb MLP themed game I plan on doing as my first game.

I just plan on doing cheap little MLP fangames as my start; these are practice. As little thought as possible went into them. When I start doing games with more thought and effort, perhaps even with plans to sell them for a couple bucks apiece, they will be original works.

So there you go.. I haven't given up yet, but.. yeah.. a ways to go, but at least learning what the problem is has been progress.